So, I went into this career thinking it would be stimulating, rewarding and flexible if I had children. Well, I can tell you it has been a big disappointment


    Do we really want it all?

    If you do by all means you should have that opportunity. I don’t want to take that away from anyone, especially women. In my experience with myself and other women who supposedly have it ALL….Yes that may be the case we do…. We are married, have children, and work out of the house with demanding schedules that either leave out employers pleased as pie and pushing for more but in the meanwhile leaving us neglecting out kids and for me husband is last. Then you are all resentful, bitter and angry except the assshole employer who’s making money off of you. Might as well just blow the fucker and get back to what really matters faster and quicker…. Am I right ? And give us practice for blowing our own husbands. believe me im all for women having choices and being able to do and have the same careers as men. now it seems there’s not much of a choice in our anerican middle class. its no wonder to me why im so unfulfilled as a mother and dont have the time or why i have no intetest in fucking my own husb
    and.life has become complicated
    and unfulfilling and wondering how can i hurt so many people i love. How do I get out?

    Friends that don’t have boundaries #friends that smother

    Where do I start? We’ve been family to each other and I love her and her kids dearly. But, our encounters/ kidnapping has become overwhelming. Once we are together my entire day and evening has been planned. Oh and the next several weeks and if I say I can’t; well she has a fix for that too. Oh you can do that tomorrow or I can help you ( which seldom happens)  or I’m so lonely and scared and my kids are so fucked up from their dad that I can’t be alone. Guilt guilt manipulation over and over again. So I gave in for many years, not that we didn’t have our good times but my life has suffered and been neglected because of this. You see she has been a stay at home mom(my dream) and iWork full time. So my days off were dedicated to her- a little insight I’m not from this area and I’ve been here now for 12 years and still doesn’t feel like home to me. So when I met HER it was comforting to have her friendship and companionship. Neither one of us has family here so we spent holidays together and did everything together. Now it’s a little harder our girls are still friends but have grown apart and have different interests ( which is another topic I am made to feel guilty about). I now have a young child with special needs(3 years old) her youngest is 11. It’s hard to not be home in my little ones element not to mention all the stuff I have to pack up to hang out at her house

        1. Manipulating friend>still makes it difficult to say NO. she wants me to be at her house at ANY time possible— forget about my family! even though i just want to be home with them! yes i have told her this Many Many times and she eithet cant connect the two or doesnt give a fuck. ive gone so far as telling her no to coming over for a drink because my husband was going out of town and I wAnted to be home with them and her reply was ok I’ll call your husband and see if he wants to come over. Really!??!!!

        Another topic – should keep to myself but I can’t

        So, I don’t know how to start this and make my point sound validated, similar to others or just a plain old bitch. Why is it when married men lose their jobs ( this is just my case) they sit and play video games and ignore everyone around them. Their small children can be saying “daddy daddy watch! Play with me! I feel scared ! I’m hungry!” And they literally just sit there acting like it is above them to actually interact and play with their mini people. For example, I have been the primary and I mean primary breadwinner for my family for over 15 years. Had the down payment for both houses,able to pay all bills on my own. Over the past 10 years my mr has lost his job 5 times and has significant spacing between these times. Each time I feel promise that he will help more with the cleaning, laundry, kids , cooking, going they the mail and paying bills .,,,,
        But no this never happens. Meanwhile I’m in a stressful, dangerous position at work providing everything for my family while my husband plays video games nonstop.
        My bitterness grows and I really despise the ugly person I have become.

        Sadness inside my happy world

        Don’t know how I got here… Well I do, fell in love and thought our differences would either meld together or I could just take it all on myself. We are so optimistic when we are in love, so energetic, so filled with endorphins that we don’t reason or think about life in 10 years.
        Here I am married to my true love and have pretty much everything I wanted by this age and yet I’m so depressed and angry and resentful and the worst word of all bitter.
        To be continued….,β€οΈπŸ’‹πŸ’ŒπŸ’“πŸ’•πŸ’πŸ‘₯πŸ˜˜πŸŒšπŸŒ‘πŸŒ’πŸŒ“πŸ‘ΆπŸ‘ͺπŸ·πŸΉπŸΌπŸ·πŸ»πŸΊπŸΈπŸΈπŸΈπŸ’ŠπŸ’΄πŸš¬What now

        When sister in laws look tired.

        Yes, spent the past weekend with my sister in law and fam. Haven’t seen them in 2 and 1/2 years– she looks as worn out as I do and thin. Does anyone else see this trend? My other sister in law #3 looks the same too. Yes 3 of us women married 3 brothers who must have been taught the same parenting/marriage skills.
        Can’t say anymore……our appearance speaks for itself. So tired can’t sometimes think clearly.



        I feel that in writing this post, which has been brewing for a long time, I am saying something that some might see as controversial. So let me start by making something clear. This post is not intended to criticise the work of the big charities – I am a proud member of Mind and Rethink Mental Illness and have undertaken both paid and voluntary work for both organisations. I have also volunteered for Time to Change and made a TTC pledge at last year’s Mind Media Awards. A huge amount of good work is being done on a daily basis to challenge public perceptions of mental health and to normalise discussions of the topic. Time to Change is entirely right to highlight just how peculiar it is that mental health stigma continues to loom so large given that a quarter of the population is thought experience some form of…

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        My letter to Julie

        We drove around tonight and got a bunch of fliers. I think there is some good possibilities . Remember u can stay with us ok– please it would be good for me to have u to talk to. My brother is upset with me and I don’t know how to make it right. When I’m depressed I seal myself off this is the the 4th email I’ve written to u. I write- delete – this is wrong